I'm at my Saturday morning NA meeting. They always go around the room saying they are addicts, their name and their clean time. I say they even though I am sitting there too, should be we right(?), because I'm living a lie at the moment. When the circle hits me I always state my clean time from the date I last used Marijuana, not the last time that I actually used drugs period. Which in this case was yesterday at about 2pm, finishing up my last little bit of BTH that I scored in The Loin the day before.
I must keep face with these folks even though we are all here to help each other out regardless of what we have done ten years ago or even the day before.
Today I don't feel like using. In that I mean I don't feel like taking the BART into The Shitty City to score. Now if I knew where to go that was say closer all bets would be probably off. But I did waste too much money the day before and cannot afford to waste anymore. I'm glad that is my option because atleast for today that means I won't be abusing.
I am Not A Cop, thanks for listening.
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